“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”
― Marilyn Monroe
I have always loved this quote. I feel like it describes me perfectly. I am certainly selfish. One has to be selfish in life to be happy. Now I’m not saying one should always do what they want to do because they want to do it. I mean, life is also about compromise. However, in the grand scheme of things, if you’re not getting what YOU WANT out of life, you won’t be happy. So, we gotta be a little selfish. I am selfish.
I’m also very impatient. I hate slow walkers. I hate slow drivers. I hate waiting…for anything. “I know what I want and I want it NOW”. Yeah, for me impatience and selfishness go hand in hand. Again though, if everyone was always patient, no one would ever take initiative to move forward.
I am also a little insecure. Okay, if we are being honest, I am very insecure. My motto in life is “Fake it till ya make it”. So, I fake being confident in the hopes that one day I will actually BE confident. I want to walk into a room full of people I don’t know and not have my palms sweat. I want to look in the mirror every time and think I look fabulous. Until I can do those things though, I will keep faking it.
Now, don’t tell anyone, but I also make mistakes. It doesn’t happen very often, but every now and then I mess up. It’s called human error. Sometime I think with my heart or go with my guts or analyse something in my head over and over. I never know what body part I’m supposed to listen to and thus, I sometimes make mistakes.
As far as the out of control part, I don’t think I’m out of control. Sometimes when I drink though I get very chatty and can’t control what comes out of my mouth. Does that count?
Either way, I am certainly hard to handle at times. I refer you to the above paragraphs in which I admit that I am selfish, impatient, insecure, I make mistakes, and am occasionally out of control. However, I am me. I am all of those things, but I am not only all of those things and I am certainly not all of those things all at once. I have a lot of other good traits. I am hardworking. I am loyal. I am thoughtful. I am so many adjectives. When you are with someone who loves you and supports you, they bring out the best in you. So, love me and love all of me or get none of me.
Valentine’s Day can be lonely for the single, but, no one should ever be with someone just to be with someone. Make sure you are with the person that brings out the best in you. Make sure you are with the person that loves you for you. You are wonderful. If someone tries to change you, the only thing you should be changing is your relationship status. You can’t find the right one if you’re with the wrong one. So, chin-up.